I am almost out of Polaroid film. I know this picture would say otherwise but it was taken well over two years ago. I wouldn't say I was careless with my film but I really didn't give a second thought to snapping a picture if the impulse was there. I have thousands of shots I need to scan and I finally got myself a scanner to do that. (yay for target 29.99)
That doesn't change the fact that I only have 4 packs of film left. One pack of expired regular 600 , one pack of PX 600 silver shade from the impossible project, that rumor has is pretty much garbage and two packs of TZ artistic for my SX-70. Oh and I guess I still have a few 600 shots in my 680SLR too but it makes me sad how now taking a Polaroid doesn't even cross my mind unless it is a momentous occasion. I miss the spontaneity I used to have. I realize I am consciously saving that film for something, but what exactly am I saving it for? In 2008 I set a personal goal of going to Paris and shooting a ton of Polaroids before I turned forty. Life had other plans for me and that goal was never achieved. I've often told myself that instead of Polaroids of Paris I got Polaroids of my wedding. Even so, I still want to go to Paris with my camera. None of this changes the fact that I don't have enough film to justify a trip like that.
I am part of the community over at the newly revamped Polaroid.com website and today they will make an announcement. They have been working with Lady Gaga on something called Polaroid Grey Label touting it as the next generation of Polaroid. The website homepage shows a really cool looking grey Polaroid camera.
Fingers crossed they will revel that they are going to make instant film for the Grey Label camera and that it will be compatible with all of my old Polaroid cameras.
The announcement is set for 3:30 pacific time. Here's to hoping!!!
photo by cori kindred
I am ready for you. I want to really LIVE my life this year. I have thought about having a "word" of the year ala Ali Edwards but I don't want to focus too much on one word. I need to work towards more than that this year. I want to spread my wings again.
I have quietly been scouring the internet. Noticing blogs and blog themes that inspire me. Noticing how some bloggers are really amazing writers and how certain post touch my soul and make me tear up.
Sometime ago I lost what it was I was trying to be here. So I look to start again...
This time I will write and post for myself. I will make lists. I will start new projects. I will post what inspires me. I will write from my heart because that is all i know how to do. I found when I stopped doing that, when I censored myself here and didn't allow myself to speak freely, I had nothing to say.
Which just isn't me at all.
So I start with a list to myself of things I'd like to do. Things that I think will help me enjoy life a little more.
PURGE - closets, craft supplies, books shelves and kitchen cabinets. We live in such a tiny space I need to let go of what I don't need or use. I hold on to things for sentimental value often when there is a memory I can hold onto instead. I started this yesterday and dropped off 4 bags of clothes and shoes to goodwill. It felt GREAT to let it go!
CRAFT - I miss making things. I want to play with my supplies and make little silly things for my friends and family.
READ - I love reading. I never do it anymore. I have rows of new, unread books that are collecting dust. I can barely even finish a magazine anymore. I need to slow down and enjoy reading again.
WRITE MORE - In my journal, on my blog. cards, letters all of it.
That's enough for now. Baby steps.
I'm traveling to California today but this is what inspired me over this past weekend in my home state.
lucky for me the colors on this can were so yummy because the drink inside the can wasn't. bleech!!
I have to say in flight wireless rocks!
is the hardest working man i know
let's me cry on his shoulder when i need to
never pretends to be someone he is not
has loved me since he was 18 years old
always wants to talk things out
will admit that the meaning of the words blog and post are still a little fuzzy to him
can't help that when i say the word facebook around him it results in a look of shear panic
has been my husband for 6 months
happy anniversary to the man i love (who doesn't "do" the internet)
It doesn't look like much but to me it changes everything. This is my studio space. M.I.N.E I will be able to work on my artwork and photography whenever I want. I never have to put anything away or worry about cleaning up my mess. Because it is all mine.
and it is connected to this:
I can't tell you how relieved I am in. Just by moving into this space in the past week I once again feel the need to create. I am excited. I am inspired. The thought occurred to me many times over the past few years that, that "feeling" might be gone forever and I was scared and really, really sad.
The space doesn't look like the above picture anymore. I have transported most of my art supplies and lots of inspiration to my new creative home. My sweet hubs has been there, measured and is ready to install shelves and build a custom desk. I already LOVE being there.
It has been a trying couple of years but I am ready to be an artist again. Wish me luck!
It is with mixed emotions that I compost this post. The twenty-fourth and final post for the W O R D collaboration with Jen of Painted Fish Studio. This project has been so many things for me. A creative lifeline, a godsend, a welcome distraction yet at times a creative challenge and a lesson in discipline and accountability. I am so thankful to Jen for her constant support, her amazing talent and most of all her friendship. With all that being said and while I am sad this will conclude the collaboration on our blogs, I am so excited to announce that W O R D :: a polaroid collaboration will be available in book form very soon. We have decided to self-publish our collaboration. We have established a website and a blog and will have updates about the book, the creative process and release date there and of course I will keep you updated here as well. A most sincere thank you to all who commented and were inspired by our collaboration.
Sooo on that note...
Here is Jen's photo ::
caption :: the park & lake car wash sign hasn't changed much in the last 30+ years -- the colored balls were there when i was a child. driving by is bittersweet...
Here is my photo ::
I really like it here. I don't visit often enough. I guess I wait until I have something of importance to say or a really cool photo to share. Not too many people visit here anymore. I really love the ones that do. I miss the ones that used to. I don't want you to feel sorry for me. This isn't a pity party. I'm just talking.
My life has been full of ebb and flow lately. Going one way then back the other. It is actually kind of calming in a way. I am feeling like I am on the edge of something. Change, maybe a transition? Not a scary one like the past two years have brought me but something positive. Something productive, creative.
I am feeling hopeful.